Miss Bella
ohh miss Bella
She has the
tude of a drag queen on steroids. Yet the sweetness a second later of your favorite cookies fresh out of the oven.
I
remember when we started on the terrible twos, god we would fight and fight and I was the hardest, meanest, mom ever. I went to bed most nights crying because how could my daughter like me I had spanked her and put her in time outs more then I had cuddled her.
I hated that she would listen to her dad like he was a new found god and fight me like I was an evil rash.
Of course her father and I were having some real problems and he moved out of the house
during that time. I would wonder if she blamed me for his leaving and all of this "testing" was her way of saying I hate you and want dad home. Of course he wasn't gone very long and after he moved back in the "
test's" were the same so that answered that.
These days most days we have some what of a understanding, I don't fight over everything, SO WHAT if she wants to run around dressed like a homeless street walker, SO WHAT if she truly
belives brushing her hair is the end of the world. Go ahaed and dress like a crazed man who stuck his finger in a light socket, were just staying home anyhow and I think your beautiful.
She has learned that she can push and push but once I say the numbers one and then two, she is in deep shit if she doesn't stop what she is doing and get her butt here.
Yea I'm a push over
alot - yea she wins. But never when her safety is on the line - or her manners, my child will say please and thank you and she will know to sit like a lady and eat with her mouth shut.
I guess this is my long winded way of saying we always work through whatever it is. I always have learned to make it work.
But lately I haven't been able to sleep, I'm worried to the core about my girl. Bella started talking at just a few months old. By a year old she was speaking full
sentences, she has always been so very articulate, learning words at an
incredible rate.
About 2 weeks ago we had her older cousin spend a few nights, her older cousin
stutters really bad and somehow Bella just picked it up. I spent the first week saying Bella calm down say one word at a time.
The next wondering if she was doing it for
attention until Friday night when I took her to my moms and reminded to be good and if she got excited use one word at a time.
She looked at me and said mom "I try to be a good girl and not
stutter, I try my best I don't want to get in trouble and I know I am smart I'm trying mom."
All the sudden it clicked oh my god my daughter needs some help with this, I felt so horrible for all the times I told her hey you don't
stutter. I know yours smart talk like it.
Here I thought she was just testing me
again and somehow she learned to
stutter from her cousin, I'm going to call a
speech therapist. Because god knows this is something I don't know how to fix for her and
that's all I want to do in this world.
Make sure my baby is happy
healthly and living to her full
potential!